I've wanted to start a blog for sometime now...I'm better at expressing myself and true feelings sometimes in writing better than I am verbally....So with this weeks events happening on what was already an emotional week for me...I just feel the need to write...To express myself...To get it all out.
Life throws curveballs and I would say that has been what has happened the last 10 years of my life or so....but that is another topic. Losing my mom 4 1/2 years ago is probably the hardest thing I have ever faced...PERIOD. So that is how this week had started for me. Last weekend I was already thinking about her birthday which is coming up this Sunday, September 19th. She would be 57 if she was still here with us. But God saw fit to take her home.
So with the emotions of her not being here to celebrate her birthday and having not really gotten over the emotions that she wasn't here to help me celebrate mine a couple of weeks ago...I get a phone call on Monday around noon. My friend Laura is on the other end of the line asking "Did you hear about Terry?" Well at that second a million things probably went through my mind. I knew he had gotten married on Saturday and had left for his honeymoon the day before so I was thinking he did something goofy. However, this was not the case. I said no and she said "he died this morning." At that point I was in total shock and honestly still am. I have known him practically my entire life. He ways always so sweet and had a smile on his face. Memories from church trips and school have flooded my mind for the last few days.
One in particular I will never forget because I was so embarressed...I had 10th grade English with Terry and we had Ms. Dial (who also passed away a few years ago). I was participating in the discussion in class and Terry and JD were chit chatting and she sent them in the hall until I as finished talking. She then went in the hall and evidently told them they had to buy me a rose and get down on one knee and apologize the next day in front of the whole class....And they did it. Knowing me then you can probably think about how red I turned.
Life is just so short and we take the people in our lives for granted and we don't even realize it. It often times takes something like this to make us realize how time with our families and friends are short and we should never ever take them for granted. You can turn around and they are gone.
So while I learned this life lesson...that life is short...I had a reminder this week. For those of you who read this...know I love you dearly...that you will always have a special place in my heart and that I will always be here if you need me. I would not have made it, through the last few years especially, without my friends and family.
I'm praying for Terry's family and friends. That they may find comfort and strength during this difficult time.
Psalm 34:18 "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those that are crushed in spirit."
Until Next Time....I love you all!
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