How Did I Get This Way...

"What you need to know about the past is that no matter what has happened, it has all worked together to bring you to this very moment. And this is the moment you can choose to make everything new, right now." -Unknown Well its been almost a month and a half since I poured out how miserable I was about my weight and that I was going to do something about it. So today I finally started...yes I know I had this epiphany or what have you a month ago but I'm a planner and I had to plan and make sure my heart and mind were in the right place to start this long journey...And I'm finally ready. I'm dedicated to getting this weight off for good and making lifestyle changes. Food has been my comforter for the last 10 years or so and well now I'm going to find other ways to satifsfy that....

• I have decided that I actually like working outside in the yard. A couple of weekends I cleaned up and trimmed half of the shrubs on one side. Hopefully the sun will be out this weekend and I will be able to finish up the other side and then there will be the small spot in the back that needs to be cleaned up.


• Then I plan on tackling my garage/basement.


• I am going to spend more time reading!


• I am going to stop spending so much time on the computer...for crying out loud I stare at one for 8 hours a day you would think I would be ready to do something else by the time I get off work. I am limiting my time to an hour max of computer time....I do use it to read blogs and my couponing.


• I am going to start going to bed earlier. They say to lose weight you need at least 7-8 hours of sleep.


• I am going to make sure that I exercise at least 30 minutes everyday...and I started that today.

As soon as I finished work and logged off the computer I came straight to the living room. Put on my tennis shoes and popped in the biggest loser DVD. I did a 45 min workout. I rehearsed in my head all day how it would go when I get off work. Instead of worrying about laundry or the a million other things in my house....I took time for me to exercise and sweat. And while I was doing one of the exercises in the floor doing abdominal crunches...I started saying to myself...Why did I let myself get this way? Why did I make excuses and do nothing. I had one good year in college and then I stopped and the weight crept back on....then my mom got sick and died and my way to deal with that was to eat. So I ate and ate and here I am today...Morbidly Obese....yes if you calculate my BMI...I'm morbidly obese. I don't want to be the person who whines about being overweight and does nothing about it. I am finally doing something about it. It started today....And I know there will be hills and valleys....but I know I have a wonderful support system of friends and family who love me and care about me and want to see me get healthier.

So I will use my blog to keep me accountable and chime in and let you know how I'm doing. Don't be afraid to ask me. I will be honest. I need people to keep me in check. Any suggestions or healthy recipes or advice...please send it my way. I am the only person who controls my life and from today forward I take full control. No more excuses...This is it! Until next time...love you all.